Long night is long

[supermouse]

One of those nights where you decide it's morning. For some reason I've been really cold all night, huddling under extra blankets.

One and a half hours to go before Germany officially wakes up and the long day begins.

Sibling here at nine thirty.

Everyone close to Pol is Very Upset and it's all very weird and also exactly like every account I've ever read of dealing with a death in the family.

The roughest part so far is the daily 'Night night' text I didn't send before I tried to sleep. I called Ccooke instead who was calm, compassionate and let me grieve until I was tired/relaxed enough to yawn.

I mean I didn't sleep much, if at all, but I gave it the best possible try. Several times!

Decisions have to be made, and everyone who needs to be involved isn't in a good place. Pol's will is very, very clear, it's like a last gift from him.

On a lighter note, the windowsill magpies have just arrived and are trying different strategies to make suet and mealworms happen, but I long ago decided that Real Morning is never until the alarm goes at 7:30am, and they don't get fed until after that, ever.

Comments

[rmc28]

I feel extra cold when I am very tired; maybe dealing with a shock is similar.

I'm glad your sibling is coming, and you had a Ccooke to call, and at least the nagging windowsill magpies provide some light relief. They need to learn to tell the time!

[supermouse]

They do! There's a skrinky old satellite dish they like to bounce on.

[winterbay]

I'm not a medical professional in any way but I do remember one time in the scouts many years back we ran a simulation of a plane crash in the woods and one of the things that were taught was to keep people in shock warm. I conclude from that then that it not unlikely that shock will be able to cause a person to feel/be cold.

[sessifet]

All the hugs and thoughts to you and others today.

<3

[supermouse]

Thank you, many *hugs*

[rpdom]

Many hugs.

As you may know, I very recently had a death in the family too. It wasn't entirely unexpected, but the end was very sudden. So I know how you feel to some extent.

My thought are with you.

*hugs*

[supermouse]

Thank you and I'm sorry too. *hugs*

[dmwcarol]

Was good to talk to you this morning. I wish you all possible strength for the days ahead.

[supermouse]

Thank you and yes it was good to talk.

[clanwilliam]

All the thoughts and *hugs*.

[supermouse]

Thank you *hugs*