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There's one particular photograph on the memorial page (it's [here](https://www.forevermissed.com/dapol/about), go and leave any memory you have of him if you can) where there's a toy cat with a doughnut and a bottle and a glass, and Pol is photobombing the picture.
That's my Pol. That's the man I married and I'm crying about just now. When I think of him, that's the face I'm seeing. He wore that smile so often.
Every other photograph is great too, because they show him as he lived. He did a lot of things. He went to a lot of places and saw a lot of people and he was usually trying to give good, practical help. He liked to live.
Regarding paperwork, everyone is doing their absolute best all the time just now and so we're forward on where we were. I can't do anything more until Saturday and that's something of a relief.
I have sleeping pills, so I'll get one good night's sleep tonight and tomorrow... I have no idea at all but I'll have slept. The GP suggested one every hard week until all the stress is dealt with might not be a bad idea. Sleep is incredibly important for managing bipolar, so I've been doing my best. I definitely, absolutely need one of those pills tonight though.
The random hugs, the phone calls, the offers of help, it's all been everything I've needed. I do love you all so much.
Since people keep checking, tonight's dinner was a big flapjack and a bottle of Mana shake (400 kcalories) so yes, I've eaten. My enthusiasm for food is at a very low ebb but I am working around that.
Pass on hugs to Kira and Random if you know them. Kira is the executor of his will, which is a mountain of paperwork such as I couldn't imagine, but she's been an absolute champ.
That's my Pol. That's the man I married and I'm crying about just now. When I think of him, that's the face I'm seeing. He wore that smile so often.
Every other photograph is great too, because they show him as he lived. He did a lot of things. He went to a lot of places and saw a lot of people and he was usually trying to give good, practical help. He liked to live.
Regarding paperwork, everyone is doing their absolute best all the time just now and so we're forward on where we were. I can't do anything more until Saturday and that's something of a relief.
I have sleeping pills, so I'll get one good night's sleep tonight and tomorrow... I have no idea at all but I'll have slept. The GP suggested one every hard week until all the stress is dealt with might not be a bad idea. Sleep is incredibly important for managing bipolar, so I've been doing my best. I definitely, absolutely need one of those pills tonight though.
The random hugs, the phone calls, the offers of help, it's all been everything I've needed. I do love you all so much.
Since people keep checking, tonight's dinner was a big flapjack and a bottle of Mana shake (400 kcalories) so yes, I've eaten. My enthusiasm for food is at a very low ebb but I am working around that.
Pass on hugs to Kira and Random if you know them. Kira is the executor of his will, which is a mountain of paperwork such as I couldn't imagine, but she's been an absolute champ.
