supermouse

I took a sleeping pill last night because I've been have trouble getting to sleep, with racing thoughts that go nowhere. When I have slept, I've had a broken night, waking up and having to go to sleep again. I've had vague ideas I have dreamt but don't recall what those dreams are. I've been getting to sleep at around one in the morning and waking at half past five or six in the morning, which isn't as much sleep as I need, but when I was Awake, that was it for the day.

I wake up tired and in pain and have to just slog through somehow, but I've had a stress-related 'buzz' I don't like, because it reminds me of the 'wired' feeling from having hypomania and I do not want to experience hypomania ever again. It's stayed at the level of 'con buzz', but continuing poor sleep will not help.

So I took a sleeping pill as prescribed, and my gods, that was disappointing. I took the pill at around half ten. I think I eventually got off to sleep some time after midnight, after a lot of lying in the dark, giving up, reading something, looking at the clock and lying down to sleep again. I woke up in the night and went back to sleep, had a vague dream and woke up at six thirty.

Since the absolutely no sleep of Monday night, I've been getting gradually better anyway, so I'm just going to do without. I just thought they'd do something I'd actually notice.

Is this usual? What's your experience?