To nobody's surprise, dealing with Pol's death is pretty awful

[supermouse]

So, I managed to get Pol repatriated as per his parents' wishes and with the okay of Kira and Random before I finalised things. It was done, the funeral was in hand, I could relax.

And then my health collapsed (not surprisingly) and I've had an ME/CFS relapse and something like and probably actually a nervous breakdown, managing, with difficulty, to keep in touch with the funeral directors for the month it took to get his death certificates, but I've been having a real wobbly any time I need to do anything involving forms or websites. Yesterday was an entire 'I cannot anything at all day' for example.

I've had severe trouble keeping up with people too. Hugs have helped, a lot, but I know I've been silent on here through sheer lack of spoons.

So, now financial stuff *has* to happen and I'm handing everything on to our accountants, who only heard that he'd died today when I told them. Waiting for a call back, but it really is like he's just died all over again, having to inform someone.

This time I have omeprazole for the stomach ulcer.

The pandemic is not helping anything...

Vaccination round two next week.

Hugs and messages are life, every random sudden message has really helped whether I responded or not, and often several times as I see it again. I'm all scattered and spoonless right now. But I did manage to call the accountant! I'm even clean and dressed, which is a major step up on the last two weeks.

Hope everyone is doing as well as this year allows. *hugs* to anyone else who needs them.

Comments

[rmc28]

Ooof, that sounds really tough. I am glad you at least get jab 2 next week. And congrats on calling the accountant and getting dressed!

I was thinking of you just yesterday, and next time I think of you randomly I will try to actually send you a text to say so!

[supermouse]

I think you did at some point recently? I know you haven't been all radio silence.

[shewhostaples]

*hugs*

I'm sorry it's so awful.

[supermouse]

*hugs* Thank you.

[jester_uk]

*hugs*

[supermouse]

*hugs* thank you

[agoodwinsmith]

For the longest time, while my head knew that Lorne was gone, the rest of me just assumed he was in another room. That's how we spent our life - not twinsies, but just around (as in "around here somewhere"). I dealt really well with his hospitalization, his death, his funeral - and then three months later fell apart. And I do mean apart. It has just been two years since his death and I am still angry about it, and only sort of together.

So, I am sorry about the spoonless anguish. The hardest part is that the person that used to help us through tough times is not available this time, and it hurts so much.

(((hugs)))
and here's a tissue.

[rpdom]

*hugs* I know you need them.

Well done for coping with all the officialdom involved and actually calling people to get things done.

There's still a lot of stuff ahead - as you know I'm still working on sorting out the stuff from my dad. Finally getting the solicitor to start the application for probate tomorrow. The house is sold STC. Much rushing around with more bits of paper with my sister tomorrow. It helps to have family doing stuff (although my brother is very much "When will I get my money and how much!"). I know he needs it, but even so. :(

Again *hugs* as you do need them at a time like this.

[khrister]

*hugs* Sounds awful. I wish I could say something to ease the burden.

[dmwcarol]

I don't think there is any way to make it anything other than awful. It may not feel like it, but you are doing brilliantly just getting through each day.

*hugs*

[julesjones]

You've done well making it this far. Sudden unexpected death is always awful; dealing with the logistics of repatriation just adds another layer of awfulness. Glad to hear you have your ulcer med.

I had my second jab yesterday. It is a relief, even if it will take another 3 weeks to fully kick in. I hope once you've had yours you'll feel a bit safer if you have to go out.

More hugs.